Pushing on vs Letting go

by: Ptld

A short discussion that stuck in my head:

You received an opportunity to serve
to minister in the House of Lord
you try to take the load
try and try harder
but you find that you don't belong in the ministry
you questioned about your own ability
will you give it up?
will you pursue it?
some said that we are just a servant
who are we to refuse the responsibility given unto us
some said "try it first and it's really beyond your ability...let it go"
what will you do?

If you think about the idea that who are we to refuse the responsibility given unto us, yes you might still carry out your ministry but will the motivation change? will you carry out your ministry out of obligation or out of love?

If you think about the idea that we should at least try and if we don't like it, we can let go, when and where is the border line? we might give up too early or too late but who will be the judge? we are. As a human being, we have the affinity to give up and say "at least i tried the best i could" but is it really the best? or did you falsely convince yourself that you've given the best to finally able to escape the responsibility? who knows?

what can we do when we faced this dilemma? it's back to the simple question "who are we?"
i posted a song called "who am i" a few months back. i was reminded that though we are the servant of God, we are also His children. we all know that a father will never give things that will harm his children. Our Father in heaven is father above all father who knows and designs our lives and future. We all know this fact deep in our heart but why we still doubt his plan?

As His servant we should be faithful in the responsibilities that He has entrusted to us. Though we maybe tired and wary of the heavy load, remember that His yoke is easy and His burden is light. Try to change our perspectives in our responsibilities so that our motivation in carrying out our ministry is not because of obligation but out of love for our master.

as His children we should trust his plan and no matter how hard it is, He knows our abilities better than us. He won't give us tasks that are beyond our abilities. Trust him. The hidden purpose is for Him to know and you to find out :) Here's a song for this blog. Sorry it's in Indonesian. Anyone who wants the english translation can msg me

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Pelangi Kasih

Apa yang kau alami kini
Mungkin tak dapat engkau mengerti
Satu hal tanamkan dihati
Indah semua yang Tuhan bri

Tuhanmu tak akan memberi
Ular beracun pada yang minta roti
cobaan yang kau alami
tak melebihi kekuatanmu

Tangan Tuhan sedang merenda
Suatu karya yang agung mulia
Saatnya kan tiba nanti
Kau lihat pelangi kasihNya
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For people involved, sorry for not telling you all that i'm going to put the discussion in the blog. I'm sorry if i've offended anyone too. Thank you that i learnt something from it :)